Durga's Random Thoughts.

The other day, I was walking back from college. We, I and my friend, had reached the main road outside. On the way, we met 4 guys from my batch. Well, as anywhere, there will be bad apples and good apples in a basket of 'em. They were considered bad by most. I donno cos I have only heard of their 'baddisms' and am not really in close encounters with them. Except for them teasing me with something or other once a while- in a normal way- So, then, who am I to judge? And they were smoking. While I passed they kept calling me back. We kept walking. [My friend had to go buy her medicines so I just hung around a bit farther.] After sometime, I thought, WTH, I ll just go back and talk to them. I go talk to them and well, they behaved their 'normal' except for me taking the cigarette out from one of the ones-who-talked-to-me's mouth and told him "you ll smoke after we talk." And somehow, he was ok with it.. Some time later, I said my byes and started walking ...

"my boyfriend wakes me up at night" < Search of this phrase has lead to my blog. Not once, but many times. God knows why! I have never written about a boy friend who wakes me up at night..

There are two impossible smells in Chennai. The smell of the roads. The damn dirty roads smell like "god-knows-what" all the time. People litter, sh*t, pee, spit and what not, right on the road. I some times wonder why I carry the litter around till I find a dust bin. I should also be throwing things around. The smell of their temples. God! It is so awesome, I feel its heaven. Our temples back at kerala also use sandal, ash and holy water. But never give out this smell. I always start breathing like a maniac when I near a temple here. It is just heavenly. Wonder how the same people can dirty the roads like that and keep the temples like this!

I had spicey food, just to see if I am alright. And the stomach ache killed me. Thanks to a friend and her medicine, I was saved. I really thought I would die again. Dammit man, we need some ointments for bruises and scratches inside the body, so that they heal when we consume them. "Edible Ointment" Eat it and Forget it! 

It has been a long oblong time since I thought about spirituality. Today, I again was lead to it by something. Anyways, mom had already put a rosary around my neck before coming and threatened me that she ll murder me if I remove it. So much for which won, love or rebellion. I remember the days I used to rebel. Well, religion and spirituality still does not go hand in hand for me. But still I feel, it has some connections in the most primate forms. As I was asking someone the other day, if god has ego, I dont like him. If he does not, then why does he insist on prayers to bless us? Why so much misery in the world? Was it that person's fault he was born into such a family? Or blind? Well, the answers I have received, be it from Gita or Bible, does not make any sense to me and I dont know if Khuran mentions it. If someone sinned in the past life, he should be punished in that life and not now. If it is the ancestors' fault, they should be punished. Not an unaware baby. Anyways,...

I only want to be that smile that comes to your lips when you think about the times we spent together. :) :)

Woman's day. Yeah, in the morning, I found roommies wearing pink and red and discussing cakes and then remembered. It is woman's day. But seriously, do we do justice by keeping a single day for women? Another of Archies' tactics probably. But still, for what a woman does in the sphere of her influence, can not be jammed into a single day. Lemme take my mom. She manages the house work by the time she leaves home for her office and since it is a managerial position she holds, so there too she has a lot of responsibilities and power. She manages that and comes back and has time to be with us, her babies, talk to us about the day, share her day and give us an integral part of life, a mother's love. Then she again manages dad [which is almost like managing a kid - all guys are intrinsically kids I feel and they love being so- ] and the house work. If anyone learns management, they should first do it from their moms. Managing the food when there is not enough, finances o...

Well, if there is something I crib about all the time now, its food. Dosa in the morning - twice - without anything that tastes remotely spicy. Curd rice in the noon from wherever I can get it. Lays in between. - OK, dont temme I cant eat it. Cos I can. And I will. :-| - Night is the problem. I dont find anything I can stick to. Thought I ll cook and eat porridge. But then, I am a lazy bum and it happens only once a while. So I have the bleddy hostel food and shut up. The other day, I had a huge craving for chocolates and didnt know if it was heavy and could bring on a relapse. So many treats were missed on account of my food control. So many chocolates handed back to the owners. I wonder how many of them had stomach upset after I left.. :P I always feel like eating something now. Heard typhi -sounds like my pet dog, does it not?!- makes you perpetually hungry. With only so much of choices, I keep eating the same things like a stuck tape recorder. At other times, I just keep looking ...

So, when I should have been studying about interpersonal behaviors, I am typing things out here. The coming week is gonna be hectic for me. IPE mid sems, RSM research project, RSM take home, COMA test [ which is one of the aftereffects of a 2 weeks' leave.], OM mid sems... That is, without the sche'duel'led surprises. :P Good news, along with being a shocking one, is that the RSM prof was the one who took my return most sweetly -I should say by his usual standards-. "Ya ya I know. How are you now? Still on diet? Be careful. It is good to have you back in class!" I was like, "WTF" I thought you didnt even know that a human being like me attended your classes.. And thus ended that scary movie for me. I revisited a blog. A controversial one. Finally, she has realized, a lot of things you do in the heat of youth wont last long. Anyways, happy that my views were not wrong about life. :) Rood Food Eating is one of the things I love and something I s...