Durga's Random Thoughts.

Meghamalhar. Manassariyathe paadunnu Meghamalhar. Ithalariyathe novunnu Poovithalkal. Arrival thumbinde munbinde Eenamayi Eriyunna vayikkol Naalamayi Innum, Naattil evideyo oru nertha Meghamalhar...

Confined to a room, She wrote again. The words of pain, The words of doom. Neither was she free when they were together, Nor now, when he left. Friends are gone, Moved on and on. Little left for a cheery hi. When she is hurt, It is all in the game. But never hurt them, Or suffer the storm. Why oh why, Did she choose this then? Why oh why, When the world was old? Why does everyone shove ideas down the throat? Where is that freedom she was promised? Where is the day of happiness and choice? Will her offspring be thrown in the same shackles? If yes, she told herself... She does not need to go on. She does not need to mourn. Let her be barren. And let her be the end!

Ranam karanam maranam Athra panthiyallatha vartha. Ethra puthra brathru dukhangal! Ethra karthru mathru shaapangal! Ennalum pinneyum venam thre ranam! Ha kashtam!

Ippazhthe kuttyolde oru karye! Ishtollath kittilya cha thinnulya thre! Aprathe veettile chechil paranjatha. Randu pillera chechikk. Adhyathene schooli vidana therakkilarnnu. Ivalkk ishtollath oru sidilu. Thazhillende bakshanam 1-2 manikkur daily gusthide phalam. Ishtollath koduthilya cha bakki vach kondu varum. thinnulya athrenne. Njan ente time traveller eduth korach pirakilott... Brooom Vrooom... Ente balykalath oru stop. 'Teacher, ivalu micham vachu!' Athum athinde pinnale olla adim. How! Inippo athinnu rakshapett veetil vannal, amma kananenu mumbu kalayanam thengum kuzhilu. Illenkil pinnim.. "Nee ithu thinnitte ini kanjide vellam tharu. " Athodu koodi ente thinnaathirikkal okke vellathil. Ippazhthe kuttyolde oru karye! Adi okke pazhe style aayuo entho!

When the world has gone into a stupor, some creatures decide to call it dawn. When the rains hug earth for the heat, some go for the chill in the drops. Why then is lands of the world not finding peace in the wars? Or rather, wars in the prevailing peace?

A very agitated and disappointed me is having a deep conversation with the tiny spider friend in our bedroom. "You stupid arachnid, you can't just walk around for free in my house. You are supposed to kill these damn mosquitoes. Or at least catch them with your web thingies. For heavenssake, they are insects and you are supposed to prey on 'em! Instead, all I get to do for the half hour before sleeping is playing kaikottikali and killing those beasts every single day or I have to wake up in the middle of the night cos they are devouring on me and the oaf (who never even knows that these monsters are biting him) next to me. And then I have to go through the drill of kaikottikali in the middle of the night so that they leave me in peace. You on the other hand, don't even move a finger to help me with this and walk around free here. You should be ashamed of yourself!!" The spider scooted into the gap between the painting and the wall. I am sure he is hiding of...

I have always been fascinated by the 80 millisecond rule. It just engrosses one's mind that I am already happy before I know I am happy. For those who are new to this concept, the 80 millisecond rule states that you always experience what happened 80 milliseconds in the past. Your body (brain, if we pinpoint) basically is slow to experience things as soon as it happens. Well, if we didn't live by years, it would be like a time travel every moment for us. So, I was thinking, if that is the case, we practically die and hover around for a long time. At least when you consider it in mayfly times. ;) That 80 millisecond lag means that you are dead 80 ms BEFORE you realize (or others know) you are dead. And ya, I have a feeling that some of the 'intuitions' and 'deja-vu s' are just us traveling  slower (80 ms slower) in time and then catching up with the real time differential we are used to, than a coincidence or miracle, if one may say so. References 1. htt...