Durga's Random Thoughts.

A very agitated and disappointed me is having a deep conversation with the tiny spider friend in our bedroom. "You stupid arachnid, you can't just walk around for free in my house. You are supposed to kill these damn mosquitoes. Or at least catch them with your web thingies. For heavenssake, they are insects and you are supposed to prey on 'em! Instead, all I get to do for the half hour before sleeping is playing kaikottikali and killing those beasts every single day or I have to wake up in the middle of the night cos they are devouring on me and the oaf (who never even knows that these monsters are biting him) next to me. And then I have to go through the drill of kaikottikali in the middle of the night so that they leave me in peace. You on the other hand, don't even move a finger to help me with this and walk around free here. You should be ashamed of yourself!!" The spider scooted into the gap between the painting and the wall. I am sure he is hiding of...

I have always been fascinated by the 80 millisecond rule. It just engrosses one's mind that I am already happy before I know I am happy. For those who are new to this concept, the 80 millisecond rule states that you always experience what happened 80 milliseconds in the past. Your body (brain, if we pinpoint) basically is slow to experience things as soon as it happens. Well, if we didn't live by years, it would be like a time travel every moment for us. So, I was thinking, if that is the case, we practically die and hover around for a long time. At least when you consider it in mayfly times. ;) That 80 millisecond lag means that you are dead 80 ms BEFORE you realize (or others know) you are dead. And ya, I have a feeling that some of the 'intuitions' and 'deja-vu s' are just us traveling  slower (80 ms slower) in time and then catching up with the real time differential we are used to, than a coincidence or miracle, if one may say so. References 1. htt...

You realize how much your parents love you till you get sick and their hearts beat for you 1000s of miles away.

ഒരുപാട് നാളുകൾക്ക് ശേഷം എഴുതാൻ ഒരുപാട് വൈകി എന്നൊരു തോന്നലോടെ എഴുതുന്നു. പ്രണയം. ആരാധന മൂത്ത് പ്രണയം... പ്രേമം... എന്തൊക്കയോ.. ആരോടെന്നോ എന്തിനെന്നോ ഇല്ല. ഒരു തരാം വിങ്ങൽ. വേദനയോടെ, എന്നാൽ ഒരു തരo  വിഭ്രാന്തിയോടെ. അങ്ങനെ  ഒരു കാലം ഞാൻ ഓർക്കുന്നു. ദുർഗ്ഗ അന്ന് കവിത എഴുതുമായിരുന്നു. ആ കവിതകളിൽ, ഈ വിങ്ങൽ ഒളിഞ്ഞു മറിഞ്ഞു പോകാറുണ്ടായിരുന്നു എന്ന് തോന്നുന്നു. ബാങ്കിൽ ജോലി ചെയ്തു തുടങ്ങിയതിനു ശേഷം എഴുതാൻ ഉള്ള മൂടോ ഈ വെമ്പലോ ഇല്ലായിരുന്നു. ആ ഓട്ടത്തിൽ പേനയും കടലാസ്സും കണ്ടതെ ഇല്ല. ഒരു  മഹാസാഗരത്തിന്റെ തീരത്ത്.. രാത്രി ഉടനീളം, ഒറ്റക്കക്.. നിലാവും ഞാനും. അതും ഒരു കണക്കിന് മണ്ടത്തരം ആണ്. ദുർഗ്ഗയും ജ്യോത്സ്നയും എന്ന് പറയുകയാണ് അതിന്ടെ ഭംഗി. ആരെയോ കൈ എത്തി പിടിക്കാൻ ഒരുപാട് നാളായി വലയുന്ന കടൽ. എത്തി ചേര്ന്ന പുഴക്കോ സ്ഥാനം നിഴൽ. ഇവരെ കണ്ടു കൊണ്ടിങ്ങനെ... ഓരോ  മണൽ തരിയും ഓരോര്തരിൽ പിറന്ന ജാര സന്തതികൾ. എന്തോ എവിടെയോ എടുത്തു വച്ചിരിക്കുന്നു എന്ന മട്ടിൽ മാനത്തെ ചന്ദ്രൻ. ഇതൊക്കെ എവിടെയോ കണ്ടു മറന്ന സ്വപ്‌നങ്ങൾ. എഫ്ബിയിലെ ഓട്ടത്തിനിടയിൽ, എഴുതാൻ മറന്നു. ലൈകുകളും കമന്റുകളും...

Breaking news: Two were found dead in the premises of a house in Chennai after consuming a large quantity of 'Lakshmanrekha' chalk. They were a part of a mass murder gang that has a strategy of poisoning food and water to kill large number of civillians gradually without leaving traces or evidence. The two are trained in stealth attacks and alleged to be genetically modified to withstand extreme conditions. The duo had entered the system of flats through their plumbing and hence been overlooked and unnoticed by the security and housekeepers. A member of the special task force assigned to nab them said "We had plans of trapping them at night, which is usually when they operate. They had information of us. (So) we could not capture them alive. But it is a victory. They did not have chance to further kill anyone else. But we are still investigating the modus operandi of the group. (We) will capture more in recent future." The cockroaches were unceremoniously thrown i...

I do not understand why parents have to indoctrinate their belief system into their kids. Religion, organization of stuff, way of living.. Now, one boils milk and then puts tea. Someone else puts tea at another time. Both get tea for heavenssake! One believes in a christian god the other in a hindu god and yet another does not give a damn to any of these. All of them die in the end! And I will get mad if I get into the religious fanaticism part of it. I dont care if 'your god' protects the crap out of people. I am an atheist. At least borders atheism. I dont understand crap like,"god decided to bless us cos we pray but decided to kick syria's(or afghanistan) ass cos they are a pack of blasphemic individuals." God is a pretty selfish fill up the blanks if that is the case. "Blessed are not those that are hungry for righteousness, but those that pray to me 5 times a day." Wonderful! Nobody cares if you are very Monica-ish about cleanliness and orderli...

You know, if Indira was there, she would have nationalized crude oil and petroleum sector. :( This was a status I had put up some days back and you can see how that went here . I was expecting someone to point out the glaring hole in this whole idea. Nobody did, and hence I will point it out myself. While it is a good idea to nationalize the crude oil sector so as to keep a check on the oil imports and the forex changing hands, we need to see what happens after that. Reliance, if nationalized, will bring down the prices of indigenous oil produce. Now, there will be reduction in prices (reliance/desi oil bringing it a bit down). But that would also mean more people find it affordable. Or people will stop thinking twice before using a car for that 100 m drive.-which they think twice about, right now- While they get back to 'I can afford to' mode, the requirement will rise up further. Every tom dick and harry will be using his car to show off and travel those petty distanc...