If I had my way..

If I had my way,
I would be in your arms,
crying and laughing in between.
Dissolving into the bliss,
of being together.
Again.

If I had my way,
I would be your world,
and you, my God.
Revolving like binary stars,
in our own private universe.
Again.

If I had my way,
my eyes would not be wet now
and yours, not closed.
Wet and dry,
blind and cry.
Again.

No, I never had my way.
I always let you choose.
And you chose,
to leave.

My world, now godless,
chaotic and dead,
screams my pain,
silently. Through,
what seems a smile.

Only if I had my way!...
I would not be a dead thing now.

Comments

Arun said…
wish u to hav ur own way in real life
November 16, 2009 at 11:06 PM
Durga Nandan said…
:) Wishes and dreams are beautiful wishes and dreams, only until they remain wishes and dreams. :) -DN
November 17, 2009 at 9:54 AM
Sithara Hamza Kizhakoot said…
I don't know why I took so long to discover your blogs !!! But no matter how late I am, I'm loving them all...Its beautiful..Few people have the gift to express exactly how they feel...I admire the bold expressions of pain and sarcasm in both your poems and also your writings...Sarcasm unlike some people believe does not stem from an uncaring attitude...It comes because you care....I should know because I am the same at times...Wish you the very best...Hope to see more of your amazing writings ....
December 3, 2009 at 9:01 AM
Durga Nandan said…
Thanks Sith.. :)
Yeah, sarcasm is a veil to hide your pain. No many understand that.
Love..
January 22, 2010 at 9:22 AM
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